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Our conversation picked up shortly thereafter with this from P:

Dear Jon!  I am in Nehemiah [reading a book in the Bible] right now and came across this:

“And now, our God, the great and mighty and awesome God, who keeps his covenant of unfailing love, do not let all the hardships we have suffered be as nothing to you.”  Neh.9:32.

“Then Ezra praised the Lord, the great God, and all the people chanted “Amen! Amen!” as they lifted their hands toward heaven.  Then they bowed down and worshiped the Lord with their faces to the ground.  “  Neh. 8:6.

Wow, I desire to be consumed with the Lord!  Paul was so consumed with the Good News of Jesus that it was permeated in his every cell!

Love, P

To which I replied:

I love you opening and sharing your heart.

This is my life as well: just the naked and raw emotion from the deepest places of loving and being loved by Father!

Blessings,

Dr Jon
Renegade Doc

Let’s pause for a minute in the middle of the “Conversations About Life” for some soul searching and a revelation which, if we can “get it” will make a HUGE difference for us all.

I have started an exercise program in recent weeks and last night as I was in the cool-down phase I could feel my rather chronic right rhomboid pain kick in.  I did the usual stretch thing with my neck into my shoulder and as I did so I got this really strong message:

JUST LET GO AND RECEIVE LIFE AND NEWNESS IN THAT AREA.

Now, as a massage therapist and “renegade healer” I have heard that and spoken that phrase to others MANY times.

But last night I FELT it for the very FIRST time.

That sense of letting go and just letting something alive and new and real come.

No thinking.  No analyzing.  No figuring it out, how, why, when, where?

Just accepting and receiving.  Just realizing and believing that I was worthy of receiving.

It didn’t last too long but it was there.  Real.  Alive.  Healing.  A point of reference to which I can always refer back and a memory which I can always recapture.

Now here is where “The Answer” comes in.

As I thought about this feeling, this receiving, and felt that sense of release and aliveness again, there came this revelation:

EVERYTHING that is “wrong” with us, ALL our dis-eases, our sense of failure, any diagnosis we may carry either physically, mentally, emotionally or spiritually is a result of a DEFICIENCY.

We are made complete.  100%.  Total.  Any change from that is a lack, a diminution, a falling short.

What we need is not to “get rid of” something, a diagnosis, a malady, a tumor, an anything.

No, what we need is to receive that which will restore us to 100%!

For example, a sore throat is not a germ attached to and attacking your throat, it is a LACK of your immune system to stay in balance and protect you appropriately.

A cancerous tumor is not some growth that needs to be removed, it is a sign that your body is deficient in its ability to communicate with itself properly or is toxic in some way.

My hernia is not a protuberance that needs to be put back in place, it is a lack of strength in my abdominal muscles and connective tissue to properly hold body parts in their proper place.

Poverty is not a state of mind that has to be removed from our psyche, it is the reflection of a lack of self-worth, self-confidence and skill sets that we need to be filled up.

Grief is not an emotion that we need to remove from ourselves, it is a lack of true joy and understanding of the bigger picture of what life is all about.

NOTHING that we see as a problem is something that we need to get rid of.

EVERYTHING that needs “fixing” simply needs to have whatever is necessary poured back into our life and existence and experience.

A glass half full cannot be “fixed” by removing the “half fullness” but only by placing it under the flow from a source and with open top allow the fluid to simply pour in.  In so doing the “half fullness” will automatically be gone without even thinking about it!

What I haven’t figured out is why it has taken so long to figure this out!

Yeshua never took away blindness; he brought light.  He never took away lameness; he brought strength.  He never removed bondage; he brought freedom.  He never took away death; he brought life.

So the next time you see a physician or get on a massage table or feel like you need something fixed, remember to just open up, let go and RECEIVE whatever you need from Source to fill your glass to the full mark.

The rest will take care of itself.

Let’s be receivers!

Blessings,

Dr Jon
Renegade Doc

Following the first three conversations my friend shared some things in her life that had for years made her feel like a failure.  I encouraged her that she was in no way a failure, that if anyone was, certainly it would be I (leaving medicine, etc.), but following Father is never being a failure, only a learning.

She replied with:

Jon, I receive that word.

Why do you think we are put in situations where we are stripped of our own selves?

Is it out of God’s goodness so we do not rely on our own resources but switch over to His?

I feel like I have been stripped over and over again of my sense of “self”.

Any insights?

Love, P

To which I responded:

P,

Now we are getting into the good stuff.

Forget ALL the theological “crap” you have ever learned/believed/studied. It is not “bad”, but it detracts from the “naked truth” about Father.

Go back to the beginning.

Father who is the I AM, the ONE, the ONLY – get that? the ONLY; there is really not US or ME! – made man in his imagination, his image, a hologram, an illusion but in which He could experience life in an infinite number of ways as extensions of Himself.

Hence you and me.

But this is really Father’s life we are experiencing so there is really not ‘ours’.

I know, that is a hard one to get our head around.

He put us on the planet naked and unashamed so that
a) we would all be one without separating symbols and concepts and
b) we would FEEL and EXPERIENCE maximally the physical expression of his thought.

In other words, He wanted to get the biggest bang for his buck, maximize his investment.

He also gave “us” FREE CHOICE to either experience all that we could for him or go off and be independent and play with the “bad” boys down the street (which are also part of His expression, part of the story that all turns out OK in the end).

Over all this is the idea that LOVE will be the cohesiveness, the agent, the medium, the force that woos and draws and brings us into His Oneness again.

We, however, in our choice, like scalawags given access to the candy store, like to go play in ways that are less than attentive to Father.

So He is constantly putting “tests” in front of us, constantly reminding us there is an easier way to get through the current experience, ways of living that are more intimately associated with Him.

Yeshua exemplified this for us and cut right through ALL the religious, social, cultural, and gender structure that kept people separated from themselves and each other and Father.

He called it living life more abundantly.

We could call it stripped of our own selves.

All of this is just to say, yes, Father will “strip us of ourselves” so that we will intimately, nakedly, unashamedly return to that place where He can speak and we can listen and do and experience Him in the deepest places of our heart, and His!

It is so that His imaginations, His images, His creations will bring Him Great Pleasure, just as Yeshua did.

“This is my Beloved Son, with whom I am well pleased.”

Yeshua is the first of many to whom it will be said, “Well done!”

I personally want to be in that group, want to let Father experience through my image of him ALL that He wants to experience through me (it will be but a fragment of the Total!).

I find it most often and best occurs when I can “let go” of myself, be stripped of myself, and be that naked and unashamed, free to really just listen and follow the wind, the spirit, that comes from no one knows where but whose effect can be seen by the trail it leaves.

That really is Life and Breath.

Hope this makes sense.

Love you,

Jon

Don’t forget to leave your comments!

Blessings,

Dr Jon
Renegade Doc

The fact that some people want your stuff and some people don’t is talked about all the time among marketing circles, but I am learning it first hand.

My friend and coach, Chuck Bartok, says it this way:

Marketing is knowing how to share YOUR idea with others and those who may be of like mind will enjoy the sharing and follow your lead on things recommended.

It is your presentation that encourages them to ACTION

I’m learning it myself today.  Here’s why:

Yesterday I sent an email to a list offering one of my products at a HUGE discount.  This product uses basic information about your body and generates a report telling you what foods you should eat and what supplements you need.  It is the best way I know for you to get the “big picture” of your health status and begin to move to enhance overall health.

So I am in my inbox today and one of my list subscribers unsubscribed stating that there were too many emails and the price was too high.

Made me laugh.

1) This was the second email sent in about a month.  Before that it had been a year or two since one had been sent.
2) This was also a “double opt-in” list that required 2 permissions to send anything.
3) Price point for the product was in the $150 range.

So why did I laugh?

I compared my marketing attempts with those that I receive from others.

First, many of the lists I subscribe to send emails two or three times per day.
Second, in the same inbox I had two other offers for products.  One of these only dealt with pain.  The other only dealt with hormone imbalance.  Neither gave any kind of whole body or “big picture” help for health (though each of these products no doubt are a big help for the respective problems they were addressing).
Third, prices of both of these products were in the $180 to $250 price range.

So, as Chuck would say, this subscriber was no longer of the same mind and that is OK.  It is also therefore OK for them to move on and leave the list.  We wish them well.

I, on the other hand, need to do a better job of staying in touch with subscribers.  A year between emails is way too long so the subscriber likely forgot subscribing!  Two or three per day kind of goes against my grain, however.

BTW, if you would like to get the information about this amazing health assessment product, go here.  If you want to participate, contact me and get the special pricing offer.

Blessings,

Dr Jon
Renegade Doc

My friend contacted me again, a short time later, with another dream:

OK Jon!!

Had another dream.  It was profound.

It was in the past.  You were walking along side of me.

It was when [my youngest child, with autism] was 4 years old.  I wept.  You walked with me.  I wept more.

It was not a self pity weeping (I felt the real pain).  It was very cleansing.

Perhaps your passion for medicine is for the inner man healing.  Love, P

And I responded:

P,

Wow, you are so awesome and Father is amazing. Seems like he likes to talk to me through friend’s dreams.

You are exactly correct. My passion is for total and complete healing of the inner man.

I get totally frustrated at the games we play and at the superficial levels at which we live and at how we put so much emphasis on the physical body and needs, etc.

EVERYTHING we see in the physical world and in our [personal] physical world starts at and comes from the deep places of our hearts and emotions.  Until we can go there and get honest/naked with ourselves and begin to deal we will never have real or true healing.

It is all about getting that real and listening to Father.

Thanks for sharing with me what you are experiencing!

Blessings,

Jon

There really needs to be no more comments made except to ask each one of us:

Are we ready and willing to get truly naked with ourselves and to go deep and look at what traumas, griefs, disappointments and pain has generated our dis-ease?

Blessings,

Dr Jon
Renegade Doc

Soon after our last conversation P wrote with this:

Jon,

I have no idea if this is from the Lord (maybe my soup last night was too spicy!)  but I thought maybe I’d share it with you.  It was pretty wild…..

I dreamed we all were in church together.  You were sitting next to me.  Your head was hanging down and you would not look up.

I called you by name (everyone else was standing up and singing) but you would not stand up or raise your head.  You would give no eye contact.

When I looked closely at you, your eyes were dead.(very creepy!)

Then all of a sudden Susan [my wife-Jon] got up (she was sitting somewhere else) and started to prance up and down the aisles very confident and speaking up in a voice that could be heard by all.

She started making really funny jokes and had everyone laughing.

I can’t remember exactly the jokes but it was about her body. She felt very good about her body as she held her head up, walking the aisles.

Then three young men started laughing and making bad comments and you leaped up and ran toward the three.

Instead of striking them like we all thought you would, you embraced them!

The three men were all shocked as were all of us who looked on.

Afterward the life came back in your eyes as you held your head up.  There was joy on your face.

Love, P

I responded,

P,

First, thanks for sharing your dream(s) with me. You are awesome.

Second, sorry for not having gotten back to you from earlier in the week when you had the idea that “gold” was “faith” and not real gold in my earlier dream.

[I had shared with her a dream I had where Father gave me the keys to a HUGE vault filled with gold and told me to pass it out and to keep what I needed for myself in the process.]

I was thinking on the way home from your house very similar thoughts except that I don’t think that “gold” is necessarily “faith” but it may be something very valuable both to me and to Father.

For example, I was thinking about [my son] Philip perhaps going back to Florida for a few weeks to help my sister rehab her house. He is very valuable and precious to me and giving him to her would tremendously bless her and her kids.

Since, I have also decided that what is most valuable to me and to Father is the message he seems to have given me of Freedom –

release from

• fears,
• bondages,
• oppression,
• wrong ideas,
• criticism,
• judgment of others,
• financial worries,
• relationship problems,
• sexual hangups,
• guilt,
• etc.

In that regard your latest dream (above) certainly fits –

life as we think about it, particularly as “Christians”, is not anything like what we think it is.

We are to have the freedom to appreciate and honor our bodies and to hug those whom we think are “bad”.

That is what Jesus did, totally! So thanks again!

Third, some of us desperately need Freedom from guilt and a lot of other things but we are too churched and too (self) righteous to accept it or want it (bit judgmental there of me! – woops).

Fourth, I really think your dreams are not so much about you reaching out but are more about Father wooing you back into the wildness and wierdness of Him communicating with YOU; right now in dreams, later in ????

You got burned in the past and are now safely enfolded in a bland “churchy” environment.

He is asking you to get out and get wild, back to where you can be spoken to and prodded and led by whatever means to be a voice and an instrument in the kingdom.

Thanks for waking up! Go For It!!!

Love you guys!

Blessings,

Jon

P.S. It was not the spicy chili – rather, our spicy Loving Father.

Isn’t it wonderful when we open up and make ourselves vulnerable to His Wild and Creative ways!

Let’s be open.

Blessings,

Dr Jon
RenegadeDoc

A close friend reconnected recently and we began a conversation about life and issues such as dreams and communicating with Father and Sovereignity and Free Will.

Thought you might like to be in on some of it.  It shares my heart and gets pretty naked at times.

Let me know if it touches you.

It all began with a dream that my friend “P” had about a friend of hers who was involved in a health crisis with a young son.

She wrote:

Dear Jon,

I have been “testing the spirit” about my dream.  It is still strong in my mind and every time I hear a story about Mary and the grief she was to bear for her Son’s suffering I think of [my friend's] dream…….
her face was so pure and unblemished, almost angelic.
Then when I had the interpretation that she was likened to Mary and favored by God……….and that her heart would be pierced………..
I still ponder if it is theologically correct.

I KNOW God is in control of every detail of our lives but does He allow purposeful suffering to accomplish His will in our lives (son with severe brain damage)?!

What are your thoughts along these lines……. Love, P

My response:

P,

Thanks for asking my opinion.

I don’t know that what you are sensing is theologically wrong; not sure it is a question of right or wrong.

Rather, it may be a question of what grander message Father is relaying to you, some piece of His heart He is opening up and sharing with you.

Approach it from that angle and see what He tells you.

I’ll also listen and ask and see what He says.

Blessings,

Jon

I have a young friend who needs some direction in life.

His Mom would love to see him involved in a Martial Arts program because the right kind of martial arts instruction is more than just learning how to fight and throwing your body around.

It is a total body-mind-spirit discipline, exactly what the Renegade Doc talks about throughout this blog.

Mom, in her intuitive wisdom, found a Master who embodies the principles for which she is looking for her son.

You can read more here on his website.

Or here.

I love the approach, the discipline and the mindset.

They offer a Scholarship Program which is in need of donations.

Use this link:

And I have also posted it on the sidebar to make it easier to find in the future.

Wonder if they’ll let a gray-haired guy like me join?

Blessings,

Dr Jon
Renegade Doc

In talking with friends in the past I have likened our relationship with Father to riding a motorcycle.

You generally have two choices when riding:

• Be the driver, on front, or
• Be on back.

Until now I have pointed out that most of us tell Father to get on back, we’ll be OK driving.

In that analogy we are basically telling Father to get lost, we are in control, we don’t Him.

In contrast, we get on back and let Him do the driving.  He can take us wherever He wants, at whatever speed He wants, through whatever weather conditions He wants – and we can do nothing about it.

If you have ever ridden on the back of a motorcycle you know what I am talking about.  It can be very scary and very exhilarating at the same time!  Either way you have to trust the driver and flow with him or you will never get on that bike again!

Of course, in this life Father asks and hopes that we will lean in and talk into His ear to let him know how we are doing back there and dialogue with Him about the whole experience.

However, recently I have graduated up from the motorcycle in my analogy to a bicycle!

That really is a graduation, a growing, because Life is about Choice, and it really is about independence, but with a twist.

In spite of what we have been taught by church and religion, and the oft-used phrase, usually of resignation, and often of despair, “God is in control,” Father REALLY ISN’T in control.

Now at some deep layer He is in control and could wrap this whole human/Earth planet thing up in a blink.  But at the level we all live in, He has chosen to NOT be in control.

That is the point!!

It’s called Free Will, Choice, Relationship.

So here’s where the bike analogy comes in.

When young and just getting our legs under us, your Dad probably got you a bike and probably put the training wheels on.  As you got some balance and confidence and developed some skill with the bike, the training wheels likely came off.

Then, at some point, whether you had the wheels or not, your Dad (say, or someone important in your life) probably ran alongside, holding on and helping you keep the bike upright.

But soon he let go and there you were, on your own, independent, a big boy/girl, wobbling down the road.

Soon thereafter you could ride without wobbling and with real confidence and skill.

Now here’s where the Choice comes in – the good stuff, the point of Life.

Most of us, when we became great riders, when the wobbles quit, headed down the road on our own to learn and explore and see how good we really were.  Most of us probably never thought to turn around and see what Dad was doing after he let go.

I believe that Father continues to stand there, with pride beaming out of His eyes for us, but longing in His heart for us to come back and invite Him to go riding with us, to lead us on ever more difficult and skill-testing trails, to join us in the adventure, to share Life with us.

Most of us go on and do all those things on our own, never checking in with Father to see if He has any wisdom to share, any ideas to offer, any tips to demonstrate.  And we miss out on His companionship and the shared experience.  We miss the thrill of learning from the Master Bikerider.  We never get the affirmation of our skill by hearing Him say for us to take the lead and see where the trail will take us.

Because we are so busy being totally independent we miss the dialogue, the relationship, the companionship, the bonding, the mutual appreciation, the growth, the instruction.

And so does He.

Let’s ride our bikes WITH Father.

Blessings,

Dr Jon
Renegade Doc

Does your life ever feel like it is spinning out of control?
Are there too many things going on, too many tasks to do, too many decisions to make?  Do you feel stuck?

Mine feels like that a lot of the time and especially these last few days.

There are lots of issues:

• My day job is not my dream or purpose in life.  I’m using it to try to get out of debt.
• That debt came about as an attempt to operate the family business with the intention of bettering life for all of us. Instead it has me by the throat and is a huge burden.
• My father-in-law is in a nursing home, separate from his wife of 68 years and, in spite of family choices to the contrary, he really needs to come here to live and to be cared for.  But how would we keep the jobs and do that too?
• My boys are growing up.  One is a senior in college and is finally making the bigger break and won’t be home except for short visits in the future.  The other is older and now moving away to pursue life in a totally different direction (a good thing).
• The older son is selling his mowing business as part of his moving on.  I could buy it, both to help him out and to help me out in terms of getting outdoors and being more active (the day job as a desk jockey is killing me).  But I can’t do both jobs and the mowing is seasonal.
• My deep heart, my purpose in life, is to open a nude healing center where you can come and have a “Garden of Eden” experience (without the serpent) that will bring life and freedom and true, deep healing into your life.

The question in all this overwhelms: how can this all happen?  How do I make enough money?  How do I get past the social issues and misunderstanding and sexual aberrations surrounding nudity?  Will healing really occur?  Can it occur?  How do I decide about the lawn mowing versus the job?

So this morning I did the only thing there is, really, to do.

I went deep inside.

I got centered.

Some might call it meditation.  I am calling it getting centered, listening to Father. Gerald O’Donnell calls it going deep within, becoming one with your breath, becoming the light, connecting to the One Mind, the One.

In the analogy of “spinning out of control”, it is moving off the edge of the spinning record and going back to the center where there is no movement at all, just stillness.

It is another example of “keep it simple, keep it childlike, keep it naked.”

In this place answers will come, Father can speak, the light within can shine, the path can be seen.

“Be still and know….”

Let’s be still, be centered, and let ourselves get in the flow of Life.

Blessings,

Dr Jon